gahh!!im so bored at home!gahh!!

haiz..i wanna do something new during my holidays!yet,they isnt giving me any chance for that..when can i do something new?i really wanna do something new..but i cant..there's something that dont allow me to.haiz..

its been twice my friends ask me out for a swim..how i wish i cud..haiz..wen i told them that i cant..their facial expression is diff..i dun like their reactions..

wad?they think tt im lying that i cant go out?hey!im not like them who can go out easily!i have responsibilities at home.so do they?yarh,i noe.this may not be a solid reason for me not to follow them or wad..but please..i have my sibs to take care of.yarh,even if at home i didnt actually take care of them,at least if anything happens,im there to know.

i've always wanted to let this out.yet,i dun..coz i too feel for them.i dun want them to be angry or wad by my words.maybe to them,if i say like that,they will take it as a criticisms.i dun wish for that.i just want them to understand my situation.i want them to know that im not like them..i dun have freedom to go out as and when i want.even once in a moonlight.

everytime i want to go out,it always have to be after school.or for my malay dance.and that's it!see!i dun have any freedom!!!

i want to feel and be like my friends.i want to go out with them.yet,i cant!and i hate it!i really hate it!
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hmm..
wad happened to everyone around me?
why sometimes they are gud..n sometimes they are bad?
haiz..

im so sick of all that's happening in life..
yet,this is what called life..
thus,i am going to be strong to undergo all this..

now,i feel like..
writing a poem..
writing compositions..
everything that requires WRITING!!

im HOME SICK!!


gahhhh!!
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haizzzz..

im not thr..n alot of things happened to u both..


im speechless wen i got to know about it..


one side,
u are now in the lock up..


another side,
ur face are not like last time..
its like its been damaged..



im so sad hearing all tt..



how i wish tt all this doesnt happen to u all..




his bdae just passed 4 days ago..
now,he's in thr..
haiz..



i hope he's doin fine in thr..
i hope tt he recovers soon..
i hope THEY REPENT!

IM REFERRING TO THE BOTH OF U,MY FWEN..
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haiz..
im missing u terribly..
do u noe tt??

haiz..
i regretted not to mit u tt tym..
do u even care to noe dis?

haiz.
im REALLY MISSING U!!!!
DO U EVEN CARE TO ASK ME??

haiz..
haiz..
haiz..

im Missing U!

haiz..
n i cudnt believe tt..
TEARS ARE ROLLING DOWN MY CHEEKS!
IM CRYING!

ARGHHH!!!


IM MISSING U TERRIBLY!


EVERY NIGHT..
I TINK OF U..

EVERY NIGHT,
I CANT SLEEP WELL..
COZ...
U ARE PLAYING IN MY MIND..

HAIZ..
IM MISSING NAZ TERRIBLY!!!


Syai is missing Naz!!
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i hate wadeva is happening yesterday!!!!!!!


reli hate it!!!



i hate the werd called 'love'...



it means nothing to me animore!!!



i hate it!!!




im missing u terribly..


but then...

u were saying all this??!


arghhh!!!!


fer now,i dun wish to contact u!!!!


this song is how im thinking rite now!!!!!!




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yesterday[031107] a day to rmbr!!!!


gahhhh!!!!


i saw didi cazli!!!gahhh!!!!haha!!!i've got his autograph!i also took pics with him!!!

n..n..n..


sang with him tooooooo!!!!!!gahhh!!!!!


DIDI DIDI DIDI DIDI DIDI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


DIDI CAZLI!!!!!!

DIDI CAZLI!!!!!!


IM HIS NO. 1 FAN!!!!

GAHHHHH!!!!


CAN FAINT DOWN THR!!!

HAHAK!

YEAH!!!!GAHHHHH!!!!


TOO EXCITED!DUNNOE WAD TO MORE TO SAE!!!!



SYAIDAH'S OUT!
SO INTO HIS SONG![DAMBAAN CINTA]


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haiz..wad happened!!!!after putting the phone yesterday...i suddenly had a headache..a bad headache..am i thiking about u too much?if it is,wad makes me to b sick?

why...i have no appetite?since the last two days..i never had eaten anything right..all i ate are junk foods!

i dun know wads happening to me...

it seems that im skipping my meals..but i dun wish to skip my meals.

something is really wrong with me.yet, i am still unsure of it..gah!!!!

at night,i always have difficulties to sleep.i kept thinking about u..im missing u..n my head is having a such damn headache!

gahh!!hate it mann!!!

yeah...nowadays i sleep at arnd 12+ the earliest..


syaidah's out!
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haiz..

i failed to make it today.
gahh!!!why is it so??!!!

jikalau waktu boleh di putar kembali..
ingin sahaja aku memenuhi apa yg tidak kesampaian..
engkau mungkin berfikir bahawa aku berasa gembira..
namun,aku amat kecewa dgn diriku sendiri.

apakah engkau mengetahui bahawa aku telah memungikiri janjiku terhadap seseorang insan hanya untuk bertemu bersamamu?
aku telah membuat dia marah terhadapku.

namun,kali ini..

arghh!!!

tawa ku kedengaran apabila sedang berbicara bersamamu..
mungkin,engkau akan beranggapan bahawa aku berasa gembira..
namun,TIDAK!


Bagaimana lagi harus aku melakukan?


Di manakah harus aku meluahkan isi hatiku ini?


Aku amat binggung memikirkannya.


syaidah..
[aku tidak mengerti!]
maafkan aku...
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