Karaoke (:

today was a fun day for me . haha . i sang with eizzam for the karaoke audition as i said in my previous entry . heez . we were the first pair to sing . haha . i was hoping that eizzam has the confident and hoped that he wont be nervous . but at last , he become nervous as soon as i say that i am nervous . haha . i didnt hope for that . haha . then everything was a disaster for me ! haha . when im singing , my voice are shaky . then i cant sing the high notes as my voice was shaky like hell . and there's a part that i sang squatting down beside the piano in the music room . haha . we sang the song " Jangan Pisahkan " . haha . somehow , i regretted singing that song . i should have chosen "Dua Insan" instead of the song " Jangan Pisahkan " . haishh . there's a few people who participate in the karaoke audition . at first , there's only three person who participate in it . including the pair that is only me and eizzam . got teased alot of times by Yuma(s) . sadded . then , Ms Azila include my name in the participants for singing solo . haiyoo . i already said to her that i just want to sing solo for fun . not to participate in the karaoke under solo section . hahs . then , umaira too experience the same thing as me . her name was in the list too when she sang the song for fun . then , sham too participate in the karaoke . he sang the song " Asmara Ini " . he's being forced by alot of people including me , i guess . then few being sabotaged . haha . right now , we are just waiting for the results to be out for the finalists . hee . i dont want to be in there ,if possible . infact , i thinks that there's no hope for me . nor us , eizzam . haha . he too feel that way . anyway , we are joingin this for the sake of having fun only . haha . truthfully , i really enjoyed myself just now . haha . (: before going for the auditon, the whole day i have stomach ache ! haha . then , in my mind , i was like , " how the hell am i going to sing if my stoamche is aching ? " haha . im having an upset tummy . haha .
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Karaoke Audition

yeay . tomorrow is the karaoke audition . (:
will be singing with eizzam . heez .
just now i went to his house to karaoke with some of his family members . im so paiseh to sing seii . then , idk if the guy is his grandfather or uncle as i got so confused there just now , said to me not to keep my voice and thus , i have to project out my voice . haha .
eizzam , dont strain your voice more . you have to make it for tomorrow .
sadded , alia couldnt sing for tomorrow .. she's having a bad throat .
never mind alia , next year still have . haha . (:

Cheerleading

just now , i went for cheerleading prac at cck stadium . Mr Naz was there . and i was shocked when i saw alia ! she's wearing a long skirt outside . it was my first time seeing her in that type of wear . hee . but she look good wearing that skirt .
just now , we practise few of the stunts . and i tried some too . i am only confident for the Superman stunt . but not any others especially pop . if u tell me to choose between sweep and pop , i would rather choose sweep . and there's this one stunt that i have to stand on top of the shoulder and fall back . just now , i almost did it . but at last , the past incident made me to have my phobia back . luckily , Mr Naz was in front of me . thus , i took his hands as i was about to fall in front instead of behind . thanks , Mr Naz . and sorry Faris , i stood for too long on your shoulder . eizzam too , sorry that i didnt listen to you when you told me to fall back .

omg ! its midnight already and i still have not sleep . tomorrow schooling . damn . laziness . but whatever it is , i cant wait for tomorrow . KARAOKE !
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Missing You

haishh . yesterday i slept late despite of the fact that i am exhausted . i just couldnt sleep . im missing him lots . i was hoping that he would call me .. but sadded . haish . im missing him terribly seii . haish .

Cheerleading

there's a pracitise today . at CCK stadium . hahs . at 1630 we are going to meet at yewtee . haiyoo . we start the practise late . hahs . nehmind . its good . haha . then we are going to end it at around 2000 . i will confirm that i am going to be exhausted and that my grandmother will nag at me about it . i have only told my mom . and she's fine with it . but my grandmother ? no way ! haha ! before i am going for my cheerleading , i am going to finish up all my homework ! ohh god . =.=
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Missing You

haish . im missing you lots .. i wanna meet you .. haishh . today , the whole day u have not contact me . haish . why , dear ? im missing you lots , do you know that ? hm ..

Exhausted

i am soo damn exhausted today . i went to school for malay dance at 1030 . then it ends at 1600 . and then , we rushed to Millennia Institute to watch Awang Belanga . then , it ended at nearly 2000 . so exhausted and HUNGRY ! haha ! thus , me , iqah kecik , shiks , myra , eizzam , radin and esty walked to West Mall .. however , Radin didnt eat with us . he went to meet his friends as they want to go to town . we planned to eat at Kofu , but ended up , we ate at KFC instead . haha . then , eizzam sent me home as i am afraid walking home alone and its already dark outside there . hee ~ thanks eizzam . (:

Meet parent session

freaking hell . yesterday was meet parent session at school . thus , my mom went to my school to take my result and meet my teacher . Mdm Teh commented alot about me . damn . but there are good comments though . haha . luckily , she didnt tell my mom that i am DAMN talkative in the class . hee ~
then , she said to my mom , " syaidah can do well for her maths but she failed for her POA ."
duhh =.=" how am i supposed to pass my POA when during every lesson , i sleep in class . haha . luckily , my mom didnt meet my POA teacher , if not, im so dead . haha . she will confirm nag at me non stop . haha .
Mdm Teh also said that she's worried about me cause she got to know that i have A VERY ACTIVE SOCIAL LIFE . Wth . haha . then she said about me having BF . haiyoo . lucky i was there to say that its not true . if not , i am so dead ! haha .
after that , Ariff said to me , " Syai , ur mother like gangster uhh . "
then i was like asking why .. and guess what he said . he said that its because my mom hair is very blonde . haha . then , he also commented that my mom's face is fierce . haha . I AGREE ! haha .
so after he said all that , amin and fir interrupt . they also agree with Ariff . haha . then i was like , " thus , if im like this , dun blame me . ariff said my mom is like a gangster . "
haha . i said that cause i always beat them . haha . i am so rough with them . haha .
whatever it is , i am happy for my result . except for Combine Humans and POA . both of it i got E8 . haha .

MATH = A2
ENG = B4
MALAY = A1
COMBINED SCI = C6
COMBINED HUMANS = E8
POA = E8
FNN = A2

L1R4 = 15
LIR5 = 23

damn . my L1R5 sucks . haish . and my L1R4 i aim to get less than 12 . nehmind . i have motivate myself to do better . and i am starting everything from now . i want to excel in my MYE and Prelim so that i am eligible to go for DPA . (:
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Exhausted !

ohh goshh . i am so exhausted . just now i was doing my fnn worksheet at the couch and i fell asleep . haha . i am so lazy to complete it . i am too exhausted . i had a long day today . when i woke up in the morning , i could barely walk . my legs are having a bad cramp . hahs . then , i end school late . i end at 2.50pm . haishh . straight after that , i have math supplementary . gahh . forever with math , math , math and more math . haha . then i went straight to the gym for my cheerleading practise . as per normal it all ended late . hahs . for cheerleading , i am not the flyer . as i dont have confident in it . as during sec 1 , i almost hit my head on the floor from quite a great height . so the phobia in me is still there . hee . then after that , i went to meet Naz . (: so happy . haha . (:

btw , this sunday i have cheerleading prac again . at CCK stadium till 8pm ! confirm i am going to be super tired . gahh . haiyoo . cheerleading steps still not done . ohh god . i told that someone to help , but dont know larh ehh .. hm ..

CHOCOLATES !

ohh goshh . im craving for chocolates and only chocolates ! haha ! its like everyday i kept on eating chocolates . hee . (: im becoming fatter . argghhh . but whatever it is , i still want to eat more and more chocolates . hee . i need some chocolate supply in my candy bag ! haha ! XDD
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RANDOM (:

haish . im so damn tired . during PE , we have to run . haish . my thigh is having cramps . just now during malay dance , i was limping instead of dancing . ohh gosh .

haiyoo . my math still not done . my english compre that is my holiday homework is still not done . tomorrow due . ohh my gosh ! i am slacking too much . haish .

i hate my time planning . in fact , i didnt follow up to what i have plan to do . haha . feeling so lazy .

as per normal , i was too tired that just now , in class , during POA and English lesson , i slept . haha . too tired lurh . hahs .

omg . i dont want my mom to meet my POA teacher this friday . if she do , then i will pray hard that my teacher didnt say to her about me sleeping in class often . hee . hopefully that my mom is lazy to meet my teacher . hee . (:

i cant wait to get my result slip . haish . nehmind , its just a matter of a few more days . hahs . hope that my result is okayy .. if not , i am sooo dead . gonna hear my mom lecturing me again and again and again . and me , giving reasons non stop . haha .

aite then , i have to do my homework again . i am half way of doing it . hee . (:
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Beautiful Liar!

i knew it . you are such a beautiful liar ! i just hate seeing you giving false hope to her . i know how she feels . eventhough , i am not that close to her , i still care for her as my junior . you are such a freaking ....

what should i label you as ? A BIG FAT LIAR !

i just hate for knowing someone like you . how i wish that there's no one in this world like you . i was damn frustrated that you actually gave her false hope . i don't want anyone of my friends to get hurt by you ! you are just playing around . you have never change . i always doubt you in having a long relationship . can't help it .

i feel like giving him a nice tight slap !

whatever already larh . im lazy to talk about him anymore . he's such a JERK !
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CONFESSION

to whom it may concern , i want you to know that i don't want to see you being like this anymore . i tried my best . but i see that it is to no avail . i am trying hard to make you back as per normal . but it seems that i can't . what else should i do ? you have to understand , i belongs to someone else . i know that you know about it . to be truthful to you , my feelings for you is not more than just a friend . i am sorry . you may be hurt reading this .. but i have to say this , i can't be with you as the old times . i love him , no matter what happens . i am sorry to have hurt you . i didn't wish for all this to happen between us . i thought that you could forget me and move on . but i realise that i am wrong . i didn't wish for all this to happen . i can only be your close friend .. i am sorry .. after such a long time then i finally get to let this out ..

let the past be the past .. let's not think about it anymore . i know , i have hurt your feelings . and i am sorry .

i loved you once , twice and thrice . and that's it . not anymore . i had enough .

now , i want to move on .. in fact , i have move on .. i am happy with the one i am with now and that is Nazirul .. i love him .. and a days goes by , i am loving him more ..

heyy friend .. to love is to let go .. please move on ..
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Sick !

haiyoo . feel like pulling off my irritating nose ! argh . feeling so sick . hate it . damn . haishh . im having a bad flu every night since the past three days . haishh . thus , leading me to have difficulties to sleep . ohh goshh . hate it to the max ! this year , i easily got sick . damn . im having a block nose right now . it freaking damn irritating . haishh . i want to get well . i hate being sick . ohh , im so freaking miserable . i hate it right now . arggh . i want to pull off my nose ! arghh ! since wednesday night , i have been sleeping with a box of tissue . haish . sadly now , i have no more tissue ! argh ! how the hell am i going to sleep ?! arghhh .

Homework !

freaking damn shit ! i have yet to complete my homework ! ohh goshh ! im so going to be dead ! holidays left with two days and i have yet to complete alot of my homework . freaking shit ! i am so lazy to complete it , anyway .. haha .. let me list down all the homework that i have yet to complete ..

• malay worksheet
• english comprehension
• physics online homework
• tons of math worksheet
• physics revision worksheet
• maths homework 19
• FnN development

haishh . do i have enough time left to complete all this ? ohh god . im so laid back these days . i am not doing my homeworks on time . what is going to happen to me ? damn . i can't carry on with this attitude towards school work . i ned to be on task . haishh . i don't want to regret later on . i need to wake up ! this is my major year ! haishh . with this attitude towards studies , i won't be able to do well . haishh . i must not slack anymore ! i will try to finish up my these homework by school re-opens .. haishh . luckily the other homeworks that i have not mention above , i have completed it . hee . XDD

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LOVE
i can't take it anymore . i want to let everything out . but i just don't understand how to let it all out . should i cry ? should i shout as loud as i can ? what should i do ? right now , i am in the need of you , my dear .. i can't carry on being like this . I NEED YOU.. i am yearning to meet you . i am yearning to talk with you as we always do .. i am waiting for everything to be as usual .. when you called me just now , i really want to talk with you and be as usual .. but i just don't know why i am still acting like this .. maybe , i am too hurt for whatever that has happened for the past few days .. i am tired of all this fight .. it's only ONE month pass after we had our last fight .. and we fought again .. why has our relationship become rocky ? WHY ?

without you apologising , i have already forgiven you . but i am still like this cause it hurts when everytime you called me , you will always keep quiet . and now , when you are trying your best not to keep quiet , i am the one who is making things worst . i don't know why all this is happening .. haishh .. this has been happening alot of times .. i am tired of going through all this ..

mengapa harus terjadi sebegini ? tidak pernah aku ingin kita menjadi sebegini .. semakin hari berlalu , aku rasakan bagai segalanya semakin berbeza .. hatiku menjadi sebak setiap kali aku terkenang tentang dirimu .. wahai sayang , mengapa harus terjadi sebegini ? aku sudah semakin kerap terluka .. semakin aku menyayangimu , semakin hatiku terluka .. aku tidak ingin kehilanganmu , sayang .. aku sedih apabila aku terfikir tentang apa yang sedang berlaku kepada kita .. aku rindu keadaan kita yang mesra itu .. kemana hilangnya segala masa-masa mesra itu ?
kadangkala , aku rasakan bagai tiada lagi harapan untuk kita untuk bersama .. tapi , aku tetap tabah .. aku tidak ingin kita terpisah .. aku sangat memerlukanmu .. tapi , dimanakah kamu berada sekarang ? aku merindui dakapanmu .. aku merindui dirimu .. walaupun hatiku kini sering terluka dengan sikapmu itu , aku masih tetap merinduimu .. inginku lari ke pelukanmu .. airmata semakin deras berguguran dari kelopak mataku .. pada saat inilah , aku benar-benar memerlukanmu ..

hingga sekarang .. aku masih kehilangan .. aku binggung .. memikirkan apa yang telah terjadi terhadap kita dan apakah puncanya ..

AKU SANGAT MEMERLUKANMU..
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Love

haish . i feel like crying everytime i think of us . why must it be like this ? it hurts alot .. i have been holding back my tears for few days .. but i know , i cant hold it back anymore .. why are we like this ? what has happen ? i hate being like this .. i want u to know how i am feeling right now .. for how long more should i cry over this matter ? i tried my best to not cry .. but now , i cant .. im letting it all go .. i feel that you are being like this cause of me . im the one who is responsible for all that is happening to us right now .. and please stop denying it .. i know its all cause of me .. what more am i supposed to do ? haishh ..

I JUST MISS EVERYTHING !

im sorry for what's happening .. i dont know what more i should do .. haishh ..

IM SORRY !
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haish ..
what's happening ?
why must it be like this ?
why ? why ? and why ?
i hate being like this ..

this year , there's alot of this type of problems .. why ?
haish . i just dont know what else to do ..
im so stressed out ..
just feel like running away from all this stressness ..
but i wont . i will stay strong and be patient ..

shiks,
be strong kayy ? i just got to know about it .. im sorry coz i didnt know it earlier .. let's us be strong kayy .. im always there for you kayy ..
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why is our friendship like this ? i hate that is happening . why do i feel that we are separated despite knowing the fat that we are as one . we are sisters , arent we ? i miss everything , you know that . i want us to be like usual .

but now , u sat at the different table during recess . while i was waiting for the three of you at our normal table . what is it that you all not satisfied with ? i am not trying to pint point things out or even pint pointing at any of you . i just want to know why is this happening and why is it like this . if any of you dont like having my friend with us , tell me . we can sort things out .

haish . life is so complicated .

heyy my dearest friend , we are going through the same thing . both of us are depressed . damn . all about the thing that are not important , huh . damn goodness .
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haish . why must it be like this ? those all memories , slowly coming back to me .. why must i go through all this ? im lost in two worlds .. haish . nehmind ..

FRIENDSHIP.
why has my friendship turn out to be like this ? i hate seeing us being separated . last time , we are as one . but now , eventhough we are always together , we are separated . sometimes , i do feel left out when i am with all of you girls .. how should i say to you all about what i felt ? there are times when i feel a total stranger hanging out with all of you as all of you keep on chattering among yourself about something that i am totally clueless .. thus , i am feeling left out . there's once , you all made me feel that i am not there and keep on talking among yourselves . during that time , i feel like going away from that particular place and cry my heart out . but i didnt . i didnt want you all to feel bad or anyhting . i wish that we could be as usual .. right now , i know im close with a friend of mine . i know that . but whatever it is , i still want you girls to be the same . of there's something that you all dont like , tell me . i miss our friendship .

LOVE.
why have you not been replying to my messages ? i miss you .. i texted you for several times , but still , you didnt reply .. its making so frustrated . everytime i texted you , and when u didnt reply , and when i asked you , you will say that your handphone is dead . its always the same explanation . i trust you . but now , you didnt even reply to any of my messages , and what is the reason behind this ? if you are busy , tell me . so that i wont disturb you and at least , i know that you are busy . rather than you leave me clueless about your whereabouts . this will also make me to think of other things . i dont like it and its getting on my nerves . what i need is that you just text me once to tell me that you are busy or something . dont just leave my messages not replied . i cant help not being mad at you .

PAST.
i was shocked when you told me about that . i am totally clueless about it till you told me . but i am sorry .. its too late .. but i promise you , everything is going to be the same . i am fine with it . let the memories be fresh in the minds of us . i am sure that i wont forget those moments .. if you have let it out earlier , i am sure that you will get it . (:

EXAMS.
yeay ! i passed my math ! got an A2 . XD however , i failed my combined humanities . arghhh . my POA too , i failed . its damn bad . arggh . nehmind . i tried my best . and i failed these two subjects by a few marks . all thanks to the careless mistakes i have made . hee . as for POA , i tried my best . i told sham to teach me after school . and the good thing was that , before he teach me , i know nothing about POA ! haha ! yeah . at last , i understand POA . haha . but still failed due to careless mistakes . stupidity . haha . as for malay , it was well done . however , i am still not satisfied as i know that i could have done better . but still , the result is okayy . still got a distinction . hehs . (: as for combined science , i passed it . however , its a border line pass . hehs . its okayy . still have room for improvements . (:
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