im enjoying my work. (: i've been doing full shift on the weekends and more are coming for this week. it'll be very tiring but relaxing too. hahs. coz all i do is sit. hahs. there's alot to talk abt my work and the people there.. hehs. on my first day of work which i didnt expect to start working on that day itself, i realised that every of the worker there are guys except for one china girl and my boss. and i have to cancel my meet up with ikaa as i didnt know that i have alr start working on that day itself. oh ya. i've also get my wish granted. (: met the person just the way i want it to be. back to my story. the guys there are very friendly and approachable. but im still shy with them.. hahs. on the first day, razis alr start to try to joke around with me when he passed me the invoice. peter and azhar is the most that im okay with as i worked with them throughout. hahs. peter is very friendly. and at there, he's like a father to me. he make sure that im not hungry and to have my lunch and dinner. and since he know that im shy, he will always ask either of the guys to cook for me. hahs. lucky have peter. if not i'll be hungry all the day. hahs. everything is the same for now.. still early to comment alot about the work..all i can say is that the job is freaking easy and that its not tiring, which is why everytime i work full shift. hahs.on the second day, peter and azhar keep on teasing me. just because i cant finish up my dinner.. and at last, i brought my dinner home. hahs. yesterday was quite a silent day as i dont know most of the guys that came for work yesterday. but by the end of the day, i know them alr. and razis. everytime.. non stop teasing me. even when he's in the kitchen, he can still fool around with me. and peter also. keep on teasing me when im doing closing. these two guys are the same. but at least peter is much better.. razis keep on teasing me till i have to count his money thrice! but at least.. its not bored working with them.. im sure i can mix well with them. (: and that rozaimi guy. he keep on making me to find out by myself who's invoice was that. but after twice he did that, i straight away know that its him. satu2 ada perangai sendiri..


imissyou,bie.
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imissyouverymuchdear.

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what's happening again? you lit up my day. and the next second, you're gone. what's this? tell me, what happened? please.. im tired of being like this.. i need you. i know that you're having problems there. me too. where are you when im in need? why must we be punished like this? why? i hate what's happening right now.. my heart bleeds whenever i think of it. i need you. i know.. its hard for you at there.. but please, cant you try to contact me? cant you? i want to be there for you. and i want you to be there when im in need.. i just need you.. i've been waiting for you to text me.. i dont care what's the time.. i dont care if you can only contact me at late night.. i dont care abt the time.. i just need to hear from you.. i need to know how you're doing.. i need to know about your well-being.. i'll keep on waiting.. i'll never give up like what i did last time.. coz i know.. i know what's the reason.. imissyou,dear.
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thanks for craving the smile on my face again, Bie.. thanks for making my day a much better day today. i've been waiting for so long. and now, my wait has bear its fruit. love ya. we'll stay strong kay? im still sorry for saying those harsh words to you. but just want you to know its all being said as i just love ya too much. sorry.. and thanks so much.. hope that this is not just for a moment.. keep that smile that you've craved, always there.
P/S: i miss ya. i love ya so much.
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im sorry, dear. very sorry. i cant control my anger.. and just blurt out those harsh words. im sorry.
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I HATE EVERYTHING!
SIMPLY EVERYTHING.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING UH EH.
I HATE THIS.
I HATE IT.

sorry. i just feel like shouting my whole heart out. i regretted everything. i regretted. i feel so stupid. freaking stupid. all thanks to you. thanks for making me realise everything. i dont want to hear anymore reasons. im just tired. really tired. im tired of living. tired of everything. haish.
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there's too much that i wanna let out to you.. but i dont know if i should let it out or not.. im afraid of things becoming worst.. i need you.. i need you to know what i've been keeping in my heart.. but im afraid that you may think that im only thinking about myself.. i need to let out to you, dear.. but how? these days too, you have been replying my msgs late and its always a word.. it hurts.. haish.. i tried to not think it in a negative way.. but i cant help it.. everytime im lonely, i always read your msgs.. but whenever i read it, my heart ache. dear, you said that i should not be afraid of anything. but how should i convince myself that everything is going to be alright. how should i tell myself not to be afraid..? i need you to make me feel secured. i need you to remove all my worries. i need you dear..
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i knew it .. im not strong enough .. its hard to make a decision .. i have no choice but to pick that option .. now .. that decision will let you have your family .. and i will still have you .. but how am i going to cope with my family ? its hard .. even now .. its hard to even face them .. i think from now on .. tears will accompany my sleep .. just like right now .. but im thankful enough that i still have you .. and my friends out there who will always be there .. im happy too that you can still have your family .. and im happy too coz i know you'll be there for me too ..

dear, we'll try our best again kay? lets give each other support and move on.. then we'll try to make things right back on the track when we've reach the right time.. i have to be strong.. you too.. we need to be strong.. let's work everything back from bottom.. let's start anew..

gathering all the courage to face reality.
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what's your decision ? i want to know your decision , dear .. but im afraid of it .. i cant lose you .. and i also dont want you to lose your family .. but what can i do ? its your decision after all .. i cant be selfish .. i need to think of you too ..right now , im waiting for your text . i will wait .. and always wait .. i need to know whats your decision .. even if i fear it .. haish . i need you right now .. and i have always need you ..

i dont feel like sitting in this house .. my mom is having grudge against me .. everyone is turning down on me .. i feel like a stranger in this house .. i just want my mom to stop saying all those things . if she really want to say that .. say it right to my face . but by trying to say indirectly to me , it really hurts .. i know , this is nothing compared to what you felt .. but im really sorry .. if you really feel like you want to beat me up till death , then go ahead . i wont stop you . do anything that will make you happy .. but please forgive me .. even staying under one roof with you , i miss you mom .. i really miss you .. dont you think that i have never appreciate what you have done for me .. i appreciate it mom .. if i dont , i would not bother to study hard so that i can help you . but i know .. this one mistake of mine has vanish everything . you wont trust me even if i tell all this to you .. my promise to you .. i will help you as long as im alive .. i will make sure that i keep to my promise , mom . perhaps .. this is nothing to you anymore ..

dear .. i need you ..
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what's going to happen to this date ? is it going to end just like that ? all the sacrifices that we have made to stay together .. should all that be dump ? if it is , what's the use of our 2 years of relationship .. everytime when we have problems .. we stay strong together .. giving each other support and then .. we managed to pull through .. why cant we pull through now ? i know this time round family does get involved . our family .. i know its hard for you to make a decision .. i may sound selfish .. but i really cant leave you .. i feel as though there's no tomorrow without you .. you have made me become too dependent on you .. you gave me too many hopes .. and before everything is fulfill .. i could see everything being ruined .. yes , everything is ruined when there's no you .. everything is ruined for me .. literally everything .. i dont want anything to separate us .. those two years that we have been together is too precious for me to keep it away .. all those memories are just too sweet for me to erased it .. even now when we are still together . i could feel that we are falling apart .. there's just too much for me to cope when there's no more you .. i need you badly that you cant even imagine .. haish . there's just too much that i wanna let out .. but its impossible here .. haish .. T__________T



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