Somehow ... i feel like im no longer part of you .. i feel like walking away .. i dont know what is it that have really made me feel like this .. i felt like as if i can no longer be with you .. i felt like all of that has really make us to be apart .. is it because that these are the times that we are busy with our own thing ? or is it that this is already meant to be happen .. i dont understand .. i tried to bring myself to mix again with you .. but somehow , i just failed . and i have always felt that i am being left out when im there with you . i always say to myself that you are the people that is most important for me .. but somehow i feel that its never the same .. its been quite long that i am being left .. perhaps , its my mistake too . im sorry . i just want us to be together back .. haish .

Dear , im in need of you now .. i miss you so much .
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somehow .. i feel that all this are fake .. as you said that you are like this cause of something else .. and when i still dont want to tell you about it , you're back to your usual moody mood . i have told you , i will tell you .. but not now . im sorry .. haish .. all my tears will no longer be visible .. no one will notice it .. just myself .. crying alone .. thinking .. sometimes , i just feel like ignoring it .. but everytime i talk to you , im reminded of it .. i need everything to be fine .. but i know , in order for everything to be fine , i have to tell you about what i have been keeping from you .. but right now , i really cant .. i dont know how to tell and what exactly to tell .. i tried to kep this things away from my mind .. but i cant .. i need to concentrate on my exams .. but all these are bothering me .. sometimes , due to this , i dont feel like talking .. really dont feel like talking .. everything seems like changing .. im being such a freaking emotional . and now , i really feel like running away from all this .. only if everything is fine .. i wont be like this .. right now , im lazy to update .. but because of the need to get rid of all this feelings , im letting it out here ... i dont want it to bother my mind .. i need a peace mind to do my papers .. i hope that im able to do it .. and i hope that im satisfied with what i have let out here .. haish .. no one to share anything with .. just by myself .. whereas , normally , all my friends will be there .. but now , i dont want to disturb them during this kind of days .. where everyone is busy studying .. and me ? occupied with problems . why must my life be this stressing ? haish .. never mind .. i know , im strong to get through all this .. (:
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Confused .

i tried to not think about it . but to no avail . didnt want to tell you , cause i need to know if you both know each other .. im sorry .. haish . im so confused . i dont know who to believe .. i dont know whether to listen to my heart as my heart is just like my fickle mind .. haish .. i hate hearing that about you .. but .. it seems that slowly .. everyone is trying to pyscho me .. haish .. i feel like crying my heart out .. now , you gave no reply to my messages .. it made me more ... haish .. why must they tell me all this at this moment ? why ? the way you acted just now , really hurts me . haish .. never mind .. its my fault too for not keeping to my promise .. one day , you will know .. i just need confirmation .. that's all .. im sorry .
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hm .. actually there's not much thing to update right now .. what i know is that right now , im trying to concentrate .. so worried for my math .. but i cant practice my math at home . argh . damn it . so far i have studied for fnn and combined science . im going to start on my humans very soon .. haish . only have next week left to study . and on the 26th oct , O level have arrived ! ohh my .. its really right at the corner .. and after that .. i can enjoy already ! (:
that's all . tired .
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im missing him lots .. haish .. couldnt sleep yesterday .. and unknowingly , tears start to brim in my eyes and it slowly roll down my cheeks .. haish .. last i met him was on friday .. and that was a great day .. but not for long .. that's the day when we last text each other .. on saturday onwards , its hard for us to contact .. there's no more wake up call from him .. no more gd night wish .. i miss him .. i miss everything .. i really miss him ..

im gonna update about 2nd oct in just a simple way .. coz right now .. im just missing him ..
on 2nd oct , we went to sentosa , pahlawan beach .. we sat at there for a while .. then we walked to the skyride and luge station .. i was damn scared during the skyride .. as it was so high above the ground .. so i held on to his hand tightly . not even allowing him to move his hand .. then we had a really great fun during the luge .. easy to say .. i really enjoy that day .. even if it ends with a bad ending .. now .. i know why he kept on saying that he have a feeling that something bad will happen on that day .. haish ..

right now .. i miss him lots and i need him ..
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this entry will be short and simple ..
yesterday i went out for raya with my classmates .. there were a total of 14 people including me .. it was a coincidence that me and fir wore the same colour .. and at first we are being teased by the others .. shafiq and hana also wore the colour that is almost the same . and they were also being teased . haha .. at shafiqah kecik's house , we played with syazwan , shafiqah's little brother , then when fir was carrying him , then he passed him to me .. and there we go .. we got teased again .. they said that we really look like a family .. wth .. alot of things happened .. shafiq was being a clown for the whole day .. adn thanks to him , even though i have lost my mood and was very lonely , i managed to enjoy the day with fun and laughters .. donny was also there .. at least that when no one was there , there's him .. azrinah was also there too .. and when i was really lonely .. she said something to me that really made me to burst out in tears . but thanks to the cars that came to our way , i laughed a little instead of letting go of my tears ..
seeing them both reminds me of last year .. where during the whole journey , i didnt even get to feel lonely .. even though i did enjoy myself , still there's part of me that is lonely .. i felt so lonely that i have no one to turn to ..
whatever it is .. it was a lovely day yesterday .. (:
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