im so lonely without you.. but so far, i am able to keep to my promise dear. i tried my best not to cry. but only these few days, after you called, i just feel like breaking down.. i feel that suddenly there's a huge lump of the feeling of missing you.. a huge lump of loneliness in my heart.. when you first went there, its enough to make me cry non stop. but as i promised you, i try to control my tears.. i know my nightmare is going to come true the moment the time strikes 9am. i knew... and it did happened. but it okay larh, coz i already know that its going to happen.. the feeling of disappointed is still acceptable.. i have expect it to happen.. and after that, went to eat with yana.. thanks yana.. and then headed to work.. was early for work.. but its okay.. so i walked to work slowly.. and im still early.. then when i reached work, i fell asleep. and when i wake up, i just feel so freaking lonely.. and i just feel like crying and when im trying to hold my tears, i feel like anytime i can become crazy. the feeling of loneliness and emptiness could not be describe.. i have never felt that way.. haish. and now, i really need him.. now have a little problem at work, i already feel like breaking down and i really need to talk.. and im wondering how can i cope with everything without him? i need him.. but i dont want to bother him so much.. whatever it is.. i know he's always there.. (: thanks dear.. i miss you, Nana!

Blogged @ 12:17 AM
Don't let me go -

i have been meeting him alot of days since my chingay. I LIKE ! but soon .. im really going to be sad.. Nana is going off already. oh ya. on last thursday, nana made me cry! he told me that he'll be going off on 1st march. and on the spot i went out from my workplace and burst into tears. thanks nana. but on that very time, he told me that he's going off on saturday instead of thursday.SO HAPPY. but only for a while.. as he will still be going off in no matter of time.. IM GONNA MISS YOU, NANA! haish. i wanna spend the last few days with you.. coz of this it will be difficult for us to meet.. kan Nana? haish! NANA, I MISS YOU! MISS YOU! AND JUST MISS YOU! I MISS YOU MORE & MORE!
spent my three day off meeting you. and last friday too. and yesterday. and know what? I have never had enough of meeting you, Honey. will be meeting you on wednesday. (: okay, Nana? and i really want to send you off. not only that. i want to meet you before you go off. :'(
okay. i have nothing else to talk. coz all that i wanna say is that.. IM SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD FOR SATURDAY. Nana, you heard me? Im really going to miss you! and all i think and wanna talk about is about how much im gonna miss you!

P/S: Yana! i really hope that you're free on saturday. teman me. if not Naz wont allow me to go..
Blogged @ 12:07 AM
Don't let me go -