Monday, October 26, 2009
somehow .. i feel that all this are fake .. as you said that you are like this cause of something else .. and when i still dont want to tell you about it , you're back to your usual moody mood . i have told you , i will tell you .. but not now . im sorry .. haish .. all my tears will no longer be visible .. no one will notice it .. just myself .. crying alone .. thinking .. sometimes , i just feel like ignoring it .. but everytime i talk to you , im reminded of it .. i need everything to be fine .. but i know , in order for everything to be fine , i have to tell you about what i have been keeping from you .. but right now , i really cant .. i dont know how to tell and what exactly to tell .. i tried to kep this things away from my mind .. but i cant .. i need to concentrate on my exams .. but all these are bothering me .. sometimes , due to this , i dont feel like talking .. really dont feel like talking .. everything seems like changing .. im being such a freaking emotional . and now , i really feel like running away from all this .. only if everything is fine .. i wont be like this .. right now , im lazy to update .. but because of the need to get rid of all this feelings , im letting it out here ... i dont want it to bother my mind .. i need a peace mind to do my papers .. i hope that im able to do it .. and i hope that im satisfied with what i have let out here .. haish .. no one to share anything with .. just by myself .. whereas , normally , all my friends will be there .. but now , i dont want to disturb them during this kind of days .. where everyone is busy studying .. and me ? occupied with problems . why must my life be this stressing ? haish .. never mind .. i know , im strong to get through all this .. (:
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