when will everything recover? imisstheoldtimes,dear. i miss the laughters we had together. the memories we had together during our relationship.. everything is just so sweet for me to let go. confession. sometimes, i do feel like breaking up. but i keep on asking myself.. will i be able to move on? what will happen to u, me and us? what will happen to all those beautiful memories we had together? despite im hurt alot of times, i still stay strong and tell myself, everything is going to be okay. relax. maybe, me being no feeling is all the effect of this. i've cried enough in my lonely nights. but to think back, why cry? every tears is precious. but i still didnt give a damn. i love you too much that im like this. if i really dont love you or care abt you, i could have end our relationship without stretching it much longer. when i first accept you, yeah. i have no feelings for you. but i didnt realise how the feelings grew in me that till now, nothing change my love for you. trust me. i know i've been telling you abt my love for you is not the same. but its all a lie. a lie and not the truth. i never thought to have love you that much. remember dear.. when you asked me to think abt it and tell what's my decision? you know, from that moment i feel as though its the end. i wanted to end it. but all the memories and things that we have been through, tell me not to let you go and tells me that this will just be a matter of time. even if there's no more trust. if i really dont love you, we wont have gone this far.. and if i really dont love you, the moment you made me feel i really cant move on, i would have ask you to let me go.. i miss those beautiful memories. i miss the time when everything was smooth for us. where people envy us for having no problems.. only if i heard nothing abt you.. maybe nothing like this will happen. however, it can also be the same. dear, i need to get things set right. i cant move on like this. this is like hell. i miss the moments when you made me laugh nonstop.. i miss those moments whereby im full of laughter and bubbly. now, everything is gone.. i want it back. i miss the old times so freaking much.. i miss you too..