when will there be room for forgiveness for me? when will all of this end? i hate moving on like this.. but im the one who have caused all of this. thanks Idah. you're GREAT. even if im the one who have caused it.. yet.. i still cry every single moment.. how shameless brat am i ? went to work with tears brimming in my eyes all the way.. trying to not let the tears drop.. but i cant hold on to it that i cried when i reached work. how shameless. really shameless. when on my way home.. again.. it happened.. i really dont feel like going home.. if possible, i wanna go to OUR place.. i wanna let go off everything.. i dont want to hold my tears.. i wanna let it all go.. i've spent most of my time wondering around.. till my mom talked to me also i ignored.. and sorry mom. i dont feel like doing anything. im lazy to go register. i dont want to do anything more.. as long as this is not settled.. i will think of nothing. not even my education. i dont give a damn anymore. coz i am stupid. (: so no use to do anything.. even my family gave up on me.. might as well give up.
