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Thursday, April 22, 2010

i've always hurt people.. haish. i just don't know what i'm supposed to do.. i keep on hurting people without knowing.. and once i've hurt them, they will be gone the next moment.. i'm sorry.. i'm truly sorry. i guess, it's better that i'm not being loved by anyone. cause those who love me, will always tend to get hurt by me.. haish. why must my life be like this? i hate hurting people. i know how does it feel to be hurt by the one you loved. but still many of them got hurt by me.. haish. my life is so terrible. i keep on hurting them and losing them.. where is my happy life that i used to have.. all the laughters that i have will always bring tears in my eyes.. what have happened to me?

i told you how i felt. and you are there giving me your sarcastic answers. i know i've hurt you. im truly am sorry. haish. i guess i really deserve it. i really does. after all that i have done to you.. this treatment is the best treatment that i should receive from you.. im sorry to have contact you again. i just need you to listen to what i need to say. but i think its all nothing to you already. and it does not bother you again. the past keep on coming back to my mind.. they are bringing tears into my eyes.. but i know it mean nothing to you already. haish. im sorry. now i cant bring myself to accept him.. i really cant.. cause i know there's still you. i know this is bullshit for you. as that time i said i dont need you an.more. but seriously.. you wont understand what's deep in my heart. i just wish that i could take out my heart and show you all its contents.. i really feel like giving up in life. in relationship. in everything i do. now if you see me, i am no longer the Idah that you know. i have totally changed. i am starting to become worst.. really worst.. i am drifted to the wrong path again..

i feel like i have lost everything in life.. and i dont want to move on. i feel like slashing myself. hurt myself. and lying in a bed full of my blood. and off i go.. every morning i wake up, i wish that the day pass by quick. cause i hate waking up. and seeing my phone with no more you.. now, i always look at our photos just to feel the love we had last time.. the love that i thought would always be there.. but its sad that its me who simply end everything.. now, im updating this in full of tears rolling down my cheeks.. but i know all this tears may just be crocodile tears in your eyes. i'm going to start writing my diary and let go off everything.. all my cries.. and everything..

i'm trying to move on.. but i can't.. i miss you. and i still love you..

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