Forgive me .

you know , when i met you just now , i was trying my best not to be like that . but i was totally out of control . my emotions took control of my body . i thought that i could control my emotions . but it turns out that i am unable to do so . when u asked for forgiveness , all i did was just keeping quiet . but deep in my heart , i was talking everything out . i was expressing everything out . i answered all your questions in my heart . i tried to say it out . but my lips are sealed close together . when u fall on your knees to beg for forgiveness and for me to tell you what is the problem , i wanted to cry . i didnt expect you to do that . but then , i still stay silent . i feel myself like a stone . but when you just left me , all i did was to cry my whole heart out . and that was why i told him to call me . i need someone to calm me down . when i wanted to go home , i saw u . i thought of going to you . i need you . and i really need a hug when you eventually left me there . tears just kept rolling down my cheeks . and eventually , i went home with tears rolling down . i tried my best to not cry . but what else can i do .. i was helpless . i thought of not going home , but i know , if i not at home yet , my mom and all will be worried . i thought of running away from all these tears , but what can i do ? i cant take it anymore just now . tt was also why i kept silence . i kept silence was also because tt i am trying my best to control myself . but it ended up worst . forgive me for being like that . im not in the right state of mind then . and about the msg that i sent to saidon , i said all that in the fit of anger . im sorry . i really didnt mean tt . I still LOVE YOU .
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